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Celebrating Alone
Wednesday, December 24, 2008 @ 11:59 PM

I never had a lame Christmas before. Sure, there were obviously years when I might have gotten pissed off because of—gee, I d'know—people calling me fat or sickening fruit cake or a sip of champagne that made me want to throw up. But I never had boring Christmases, not one in my life.

But this year is just complete shit.

I know I didn't really care much when my mom said we wouldn't have a Christmas tree. I was seriously indifferent to that, because anyway, people would be over at our place and it'd be fun—with or without a tree. But when I found out just some minutes ago that literally no one else from the family was coming over to celebrate Christmas here... well.

That's when I got pretty pissed (though I didn't show it), and I decided to rant about it in my blog.

And for Chrissake, I'm using the computer on Christmas Day. This is literally how I am going to spend my Christmas—just like what I've done every other night of this boring Christmas vacation.

If anything, at least I have consolation of the brightest idea I can come up with on how I'm going to enjoy Christmas (though by myself, but whatever): I will brew myself a warm and satisfying cup of country blend coffee and read a pleasant Jane Green book and listen to Claire de Lune over and over again from my iPod. It sounds lame, and I won't deny it really is, but at least it's something. Something more than this shit-hole noche buena (can you even call it that?) and the lame and alive-but-dead rest of my family. At least I'll feel comfort in my aloneness, and as they say:

Books remind us that we are not alone in this world.

Coffee. Books. Music. Considering everything, what more can I really ask of a good night?