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Babbles
Thursday, June 25, 2009 @ 3:40 PM

I woke up early today and yesterday, at half-past five, only to find out there weren't any classes. I do love suspensions, but I was disappointed nonetheless.

Because I've already done my homework, I had the entire morning and afternoon to be a bum. Really. The whole day I've just been tweeting, browsing Facebook, downloading music, and playing Neopets. Sounds pathetic, but honestly, I'm happy to have this time to myself. What I once called loneliness really became peace.

So now I want to babble about things. First, I really want to watch My Sister's Keeper, even more than Transformers 2. I didn't think it would be well-received and would be incomparable to the novel (which was a beautiful weepy), but surprisingly, it's receiving good reviews from critics. Am now a lot more hopeful.

Also, I discovered some cool songs like 'Float On' by Modest Mouse, 'Use Somebody' by Kings of Leon, and 'Last Words' by The Real Tuesday Weld.

Also, I am currently and probably forever will be obsessed with Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist. I swear, I could watch that movie over and over again. It has this seriously magical quality about it without being overly sentimental.

Lastly, I am quite excited for tomorrow since I'll be seeing Miss Casty!—whose stories and sarcasm I have truly missed. I can't see any teacher matching up to her like, ever. I want to be her student again.

Sigh. I hope we don't have classes tomorrow because I'm so lazy to wake up early again.

Thoughts
Thursday, June 18, 2009 @ 6:32 PM

It wouldn't feel right to me not writing after the bullshit that's happened in the last few days, and that was a lot of bull.

Everyday I ask myself, why aren't classes suspended yet? Everyday, I genuinely am excited for school (loser), but I also know that this 'situation' in Miriam is utterly stupid and senseless. The swine flu is in school, living amongst us somehow on the campus grounds. And if we are still attending school ... :| then I guess the admin's just real greedy.

Regarding my teachers, since I haven't been able to write about them yet, here it goes: Generally, I like all my male teachers, because they're awesome and I like them. Even Sir Jomar, who my classmates are mostly sad about lol, because I always thought he was a good teacher anyway. Some females teachers are okay. I mean, obviously I can't make huge judgments right now, but I worry about them most of the time.

The lessons are okay. I find Physics, Economics, Filipino, and Math (shocker!) interesting. Difficult sometimes, but definitely stuff I like learning about.

And my classmates are okay too.

Friends, despite quarantine, are still awesome.

The rest of it, like my family, is bullshit.

College Matters
Monday, June 8, 2009 @ 4:03 PM

Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. - from Rent

I submitted my UPCAT forms today—and that one statement in itself is a million other stories.

I chose BA Psychology and BA European Languages; first and second choice respectively. I thought immensely and intently about my courses, and for quite some time, I had previously chosen courses which everyone agreed upon because they were the safe routes for a confused, aspiring college student like me—but that's where I went wrong.

Because I don't want to take up Economics or a business course because I hate it. I don't want to take up Physical Therapy because I don't want to be a doctor. I don't want to take up Political Science because I don't want to be settled with taking up law, or being a politician.

And with choices like those, I'll always be unsure. I'll always doubt if I can go anywhere, if I can make it, if I'll like myself for choosing what I did twenty-some years from now. But with Psychology and European Languages, oddly enough for other people, I'm sure. Of course I have doubts, everyone does, but I feel settled and secure with wanting to study people and languages for the rest of my college life. And more importantly, I want it. I want it, and I'm happy with it.

After I submitted my UPCAT forms, I felt a tremendous weight lifted off my shoulders, and yet there was still a certain heaviness, a different heaviness, that I felt pull me down. Part of it, surely, was the fear of having made a mistake. That I left a blank on my application, or forgot to sign my name. The other part, I realized, was the fear of regret.

But I don't anymore. "Forget regret, or life is yours to miss." I can't keep worrying about hating myself and wanting to take back years of my life because that will just hinder me from truly succeeding at anything. If I let the fear of regret go, then I can be so much more able and sure with what I do.

And I'm pretty sure that's an accurate hypothesis.

Updating Life
Friday, June 5, 2009 @ 9:28 PM

I haven't updated for so long! Internet was epic fail.

So I've seen some movies recently. I planned to go into detailed critiquing, but I'm lazy and it's been a long time since I've seen them. So here's a gist:

1. Star Trek (5/5) - Kick-ass and phenomenal.
2. Ghost Town (4/5) - Hilarious and unpredictable. Not typical comedy.
3. Night at the Museum 2 (3/5) - Funny enough, but mildly forced.
4. Terminator Salvation (3/5) - Drags a lot, but better than expected.
5. Little Children (4/5) - Sophisticated drama.

Also:

WTF, Chris Pine and a person from The Hills? (Audrina?) Like. Why. WHY? See, this is why he needs to be with Zachary Quinto instead. 'Pinto' all the wayyy!