I haven't blogged in a long time. The keyboard feels alien on my fingertips—but then again, I've just been hoarding my brother's laptop for months now, so it's not actually quite surprising. xD
I cannot wait until the next paragraph to write about this, so I'll just dive right into it: 4-3 IS A FINALIST FOR THE SONGFEST! (That's my section, by the way.) I can't believe it. Seriously. As Merced said, "Expect the worst, but hope for the best"—which is exactly what I did. I didn't want to be overconfident about it since I knew other sections could totally pwn us, but OMFG, this is amazing. I've never qualified for the SongFest before, so I honestly feel like a kid dropped off on her first day of preschool.
And despite everything, whether the negativity comes from within the class or outside of it, my section is amazing. We're all so united. We're grateful; we're happy. We all sincerely love each other—and how often in life do you get that?
On another note, it's Girls at the Center week soon which meeeeans ... CEEE-LE-BRATE GOOD TIMES, COME ON! The principal is a genius for coming up with this thing. A whole week without academics? Yeah I know we still have tons of homework, but at least the pressure's a bit lifted.
And how do you like the new layout? o:
PLUS! Oh my God Inception looks amazing. And the cast? The CAST? Omg. Leonardo DiCaprio, Ellen Page, Cillian Murphy (dude from Red Eye), Marion Cotillard, Ken Watanabe, Michael Caine, Joseph Gordon-Levitt (dude from 500 Days of Summer), and prolly like a billion other amazing actors and crew members. Shit. AND CHRISTOPHER NOLAN?! ... oh my god.
RIGHT, RIGHT??
Post-Exam Week Recap
Friday, August 21, 2009 @ 2:42 PM
This was the week after exams, and it was a lot. I went through ecstatic highs and pathetic lows, but let me just talk about the stuff I'm comfy to do so.
Econ play! was a fail.
The Proposal! was cutesy.
Up! was awesome.
Songfest practice! was epic.
4-3! is love.
English! is full of crap.
Field of law! was just useless.
Field of fashion design! was mildly interesting.
Field of film-making! was exciting.
So all in all, career day! was bluh.
And seeing Mister Rovillos and Mister Laurente in Trinoma? AWKWAAAARD.
I was going to make a longer blog post, but I got lazy. xD And I shall add new icons! 8D
Revelations! I May Not Be Smart But I Do Try
Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 1:57 PM
I remember the very last day of junior year. I was in the car, on my way home, and I was silently crying in the backseat; because I ended that year hating myself for not trying hard enough. So I promised myself that this year, I wouldbe better.
And it started with the first quarter exams.
Today was results day, and it was the most heartbreaking news ever. I passed everything, but I didn't get the grades that I felt like I deserved. Because I REEEEEALLY—like, REALLY studied hard for this. I studied hard for everything, because I didn't want to repeat my mistakes from third year. I didn't want to feel like I wasn't doing enough again, like I wasn't exerting effort anymore. But based on my exam scores this quarter: Apparently my hard work just wasn't enough.
Now that was my initial reaction. Of course I was depressed, I felt like crying, I felt stupid. Like, REALLYSTUPID. My pride is forever scathed.
But then, I think something amazing happened.
I realized today that, more or less, I will always be an average student. Always. I'll probably never reach the likes of COUGHbillieCOUGHtoni; and it doesn't mean I won't strive to be of that level anymore, but when it does come to certain things, it's undeniable that I would really find those difficult.
Strangely enough though, when it came to end, I was really proud of myself. I was proud of my 50/70 in English, my 74/100 in Math and in Physics, my 60/80 in Fil. I was.
I was sincerely proud, because in every single one of my grades, I knew, I just really really knew, that I could measure my 100/100 in effort. And that's what was most important to me. I do strive to be smart, but at the core of it, I really just strive to strive. All the while as I was being so desperate to get immaculate grades, all I really just wanted to discover, was myself—that I could do it. That I could take a test and no matter what I got or how hard I found it, I did my best and pushed my limits in wanting to try harder. It's important for me to get good grades, but as long as I knew who I was while taking the exam, then that is all that matters to me. I would rather be the one who stays up all night trying so hard to understand the lesson, than be the one who was just born smart, and never had to do much. I'd rather know that I tried my best more than anything else in the world.
I don't have to be genius, and I never have to be. I just want to know that I tried.
Caution: Extreme Anger
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 @ 1:12 AM
I don't like explaining myself. When it comes to people who I know will be naive and will always negate my reasons—not merely because they think I am wrong, but really because they will never accept anything new, I literally want to hurl this laptop straight into their face and hope it sends them off the earth.
I hate it when people tell me what to do; and I can honestly say that it is not just my stubbornness speaking. I know for a fact that no matter what I say, they will never be open enough to understand my reasons. They will never see the points that make my situations, strategies, routines work. Because they just can't imagine it that way.
When people tell me to shut up, I want to tell them to fuck off. This is my life, and what I am doing with it, in it, is not toxic or unhealthy or downright bad. If anything, it actually works, and it helps me in becoming more focused and aware. It helps. So if they really want to change the way I work just because they want me to be normal, well go fuck yourself. Because unless you don't want me to pass the exams, then I'm doing it my way.
UPCAT and After It
Tuesday, August 4, 2009 @ 8:19 PM
So I decided I wanted a layout. And this one is pretty.
First thing's first: I SURVIVED THE UPCAT!—which wasn't actually asbad as I expected. Except for Math (which of course I totally failed in), but I think the rest was manageable. Since it's over, I can relax a bit and now I have an idea of these stressful entrance tests.
But I'm quite excited for the ACET. With the UPCAT, I was basically stressed throughout the whole process, from admissions to testing, but the ACET is something that, more or less, I already have an idea of. Now I can actually breathe. I have space. I can ponder happily and curiously about the fact that I am graduating and going to college, being independent and all that comes with it, without having the thought of a breakdown in the back of my head.
So enough college stuff and moving on to some high school matters (uff).
First of all I hate English right now because we never discuss literature. Although I love discussing social issues blahblahblah, I want to talk about the stories too. :( I want to talk about the theme, characters, the beauty of fiction. We never get to do that anymore.
And CL/CAT are godsends. LOL how appropriate. After having the two worst terms of CL in my entire existence, this year, CL/CAT actually make me think. Now I really ask questions and think of answers, and I never question the subjects' purpose anymore because learning those subjects are worth it.
To end, lemme just add, I believe my class has pretty good prospects for the SongFest. You know it's good when we sound better than the artist. 8) IV-3 FTW! (No really.)
The Extra-curriculars
Friday, August 28, 2009 @ 7:26 PM
I haven't blogged in a long time. The keyboard feels alien on my fingertips—but then again, I've just been hoarding my brother's laptop for months now, so it's not actually quite surprising. xD
I cannot wait until the next paragraph to write about this, so I'll just dive right into it: 4-3 IS A FINALIST FOR THE SONGFEST! (That's my section, by the way.) I can't believe it. Seriously. As Merced said, "Expect the worst, but hope for the best"—which is exactly what I did. I didn't want to be overconfident about it since I knew other sections could totally pwn us, but OMFG, this is amazing. I've never qualified for the SongFest before, so I honestly feel like a kid dropped off on her first day of preschool.
And despite everything, whether the negativity comes from within the class or outside of it, my section is amazing. We're all so united. We're grateful; we're happy. We all sincerely love each other—and how often in life do you get that?
On another note, it's Girls at the Center week soon which meeeeans ... CEEE-LE-BRATE GOOD TIMES, COME ON! The principal is a genius for coming up with this thing. A whole week without academics? Yeah I know we still have tons of homework, but at least the pressure's a bit lifted.
And how do you like the new layout? o:
PLUS! Oh my God Inception looks amazing. And the cast? The CAST? Omg. Leonardo DiCaprio, Ellen Page, Cillian Murphy (dude from Red Eye), Marion Cotillard, Ken Watanabe, Michael Caine, Joseph Gordon-Levitt (dude from 500 Days of Summer), and prolly like a billion other amazing actors and crew members. Shit. AND CHRISTOPHER NOLAN?! ... oh my god.
RIGHT, RIGHT??
Post-Exam Week Recap
Friday, August 21, 2009 @ 2:42 PM
This was the week after exams, and it was a lot. I went through ecstatic highs and pathetic lows, but let me just talk about the stuff I'm comfy to do so.
Econ play! was a fail.
The Proposal! was cutesy.
Up! was awesome.
Songfest practice! was epic.
4-3! is love.
English! is full of crap.
Field of law! was just useless.
Field of fashion design! was mildly interesting.
Field of film-making! was exciting.
So all in all, career day! was bluh.
And seeing Mister Rovillos and Mister Laurente in Trinoma? AWKWAAAARD.
I was going to make a longer blog post, but I got lazy. xD And I shall add new icons! 8D
Revelations! I May Not Be Smart But I Do Try
Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 1:57 PM
I remember the very last day of junior year. I was in the car, on my way home, and I was silently crying in the backseat; because I ended that year hating myself for not trying hard enough. So I promised myself that this year, I wouldbe better.
And it started with the first quarter exams.
Today was results day, and it was the most heartbreaking news ever. I passed everything, but I didn't get the grades that I felt like I deserved. Because I REEEEEALLY—like, REALLY studied hard for this. I studied hard for everything, because I didn't want to repeat my mistakes from third year. I didn't want to feel like I wasn't doing enough again, like I wasn't exerting effort anymore. But based on my exam scores this quarter: Apparently my hard work just wasn't enough.
Now that was my initial reaction. Of course I was depressed, I felt like crying, I felt stupid. Like, REALLYSTUPID. My pride is forever scathed.
But then, I think something amazing happened.
I realized today that, more or less, I will always be an average student. Always. I'll probably never reach the likes of COUGHbillieCOUGHtoni; and it doesn't mean I won't strive to be of that level anymore, but when it does come to certain things, it's undeniable that I would really find those difficult.
Strangely enough though, when it came to end, I was really proud of myself. I was proud of my 50/70 in English, my 74/100 in Math and in Physics, my 60/80 in Fil. I was.
I was sincerely proud, because in every single one of my grades, I knew, I just really really knew, that I could measure my 100/100 in effort. And that's what was most important to me. I do strive to be smart, but at the core of it, I really just strive to strive. All the while as I was being so desperate to get immaculate grades, all I really just wanted to discover, was myself—that I could do it. That I could take a test and no matter what I got or how hard I found it, I did my best and pushed my limits in wanting to try harder. It's important for me to get good grades, but as long as I knew who I was while taking the exam, then that is all that matters to me. I would rather be the one who stays up all night trying so hard to understand the lesson, than be the one who was just born smart, and never had to do much. I'd rather know that I tried my best more than anything else in the world.
I don't have to be genius, and I never have to be. I just want to know that I tried.
Caution: Extreme Anger
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 @ 1:12 AM
I don't like explaining myself. When it comes to people who I know will be naive and will always negate my reasons—not merely because they think I am wrong, but really because they will never accept anything new, I literally want to hurl this laptop straight into their face and hope it sends them off the earth.
I hate it when people tell me what to do; and I can honestly say that it is not just my stubbornness speaking. I know for a fact that no matter what I say, they will never be open enough to understand my reasons. They will never see the points that make my situations, strategies, routines work. Because they just can't imagine it that way.
When people tell me to shut up, I want to tell them to fuck off. This is my life, and what I am doing with it, in it, is not toxic or unhealthy or downright bad. If anything, it actually works, and it helps me in becoming more focused and aware. It helps. So if they really want to change the way I work just because they want me to be normal, well go fuck yourself. Because unless you don't want me to pass the exams, then I'm doing it my way.
UPCAT and After It
Tuesday, August 4, 2009 @ 8:19 PM
So I decided I wanted a layout. And this one is pretty.
First thing's first: I SURVIVED THE UPCAT!—which wasn't actually asbad as I expected. Except for Math (which of course I totally failed in), but I think the rest was manageable. Since it's over, I can relax a bit and now I have an idea of these stressful entrance tests.
But I'm quite excited for the ACET. With the UPCAT, I was basically stressed throughout the whole process, from admissions to testing, but the ACET is something that, more or less, I already have an idea of. Now I can actually breathe. I have space. I can ponder happily and curiously about the fact that I am graduating and going to college, being independent and all that comes with it, without having the thought of a breakdown in the back of my head.
So enough college stuff and moving on to some high school matters (uff).
First of all I hate English right now because we never discuss literature. Although I love discussing social issues blahblahblah, I want to talk about the stories too. :( I want to talk about the theme, characters, the beauty of fiction. We never get to do that anymore.
And CL/CAT are godsends. LOL how appropriate. After having the two worst terms of CL in my entire existence, this year, CL/CAT actually make me think. Now I really ask questions and think of answers, and I never question the subjects' purpose anymore because learning those subjects are worth it.
To end, lemme just add, I believe my class has pretty good prospects for the SongFest. You know it's good when we sound better than the artist. 8) IV-3 FTW! (No really.)
Introduction
Greetings and salutations
Just to properly say hello, um, hello! xD I'm Carissa, and this is my blog, Realcardbored, some random name I picked up because I couldn't think of anything else. I'm 16 years old, born on October 31, and living in the Philippines. The rest of me can be better explained below.
Currently
This very minute
Song: Exogenesis Symphony by Muse Artist/Band: Rachael Yamagata Album: The Resistance (Muse) Film: The Brothers Bloom Television: Glee Book: William Shakespeare's Julius Caesar Person: Matthew Bellamy Quote: "Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true. When will you realize? Vienna waits for you." - from the song 'Vienna' by Billy Joel
Passions
Beyond hobbies
Film. Whoever said that cinema was just for entertainment? It's art. I aspire to become a film director some day, and hopefully I can live the rest of my life with that as my permanent career.
Literature. I mostly read drama novels, like those from authors Jodi Picoult and Alice Sebold, but I also like some fantasy ones (i.e., Harry Potter).
Music. From Beethoven to Lady Gaga to Rage Against the Machine, music is my religion. I play the piano as well, and I'm pretty OC about sound quality. I need good earphones and a kickass sound system.
Travel. With this, I wish I could get more of it, but I savor every moment. I've been to the United States, Singapore, Japan, Thailand, and Hong Kong. I hope to tour South Africa, Egypt, and several countries in Europe.
Gender equity. Women's equality and gay rights are just long overdue, and the world has got a long way to go.
Favorites
Of significant range
Music: Muse, U2, The Beatles, Coldplay, Phoenix, Santana, Michael Jackson, Vampire Weekend, Rage Against the Machine, Eric Hutchinson, Amy Winehouse, Adele, Duffy, jazz, classical
Film: Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, Pride and Prejudice, Juno, The Devil Wears Prada, Iron Man, Up, The Brothers Bloom, Good Will Hunting, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, Mrs. Doubtfire, Finding Neverland, Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day
Television: American Idol, Project Runway, House, Glee, Gossip Girl, Ellen
Books: The Lovely Bones, Skylight Confessions, My Sister's Keeper, The Time Traveler's Wife, Cyrano de Bergerac, Confessions of a Shopaholic, Shopaholic Takes Manhattan, Shopaholic Ties the Knot, Remember Me?, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Thespians: Johnny Depp, James McAvoy, Ralph Fiennes, Robert Downey Jr., Mark Ruffalo, Ricky Gervais, Clive Owen, Adrien Brody, Will Smith, Morgan Freeman, Kate Winslet, Jodie Foster, Helena Bonham-Carter, Ellen Page, Saoirse Ronan, Susan Sarandon, Anne Hathaway, Amy Adams
Directors: Joe Wright, Jason Reitman, Martin Scorsese, Peter Sollett, Edward Zwick
Credits
Acknowledgments
I edited this layout a lot, but of course the original ideas and HTML coding were from someone better. xD Huge thanks and acknowledgments to
LikeWhoa for the basecodes.
» To pass the ACET
» New iPod case
» New headphones
» New cellphone
» Showbiz album by Muse
» Origin of Symmetry album by Muse
» Absolution album by Muse
» HAARP album by Muse
» Black Holes and Revelations album by Muse
» The Resistance album by Muse
» Leonard Maltin's 2010 Movie Guide
» Hungarian Dances by Jessica Duchen
» The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
» Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist DVD
Film list
Superabundance!
[4/5] About Schmidt
[4/5] Adventureland
[n/a] Annie Hall
[4/5] The Brother's Bloom
[n/a] Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
[n/a] Dr. Strangelove
[n/a] Everyone Says I Love You
[n/a] The French Connection
[4/5] Garden State
[5/5] Goodfellas
[4/5] Harry Potter 6
[4/5] He's Just Not that Into You
[5/5] The Hurt Locker
[4/5] I Love You, Man
[n/a] Lolita
[n/a] Margot at the Wedding
[n/a] Moon
[n/a] My Father's Glory
[n/a] My Sister's Keeper
[n/a] The Piano
[4/5] The Proposal
[n/a] Public Enemies
[n/a] Rain Man
[n/a] A Room with a View
[n/a] Schindler's List
[n/a] The Silence of the Lambs
[2/5] The Soloist
[n/a] Somewhere in Time
[n/a] St. Elmo's Fire
[n/a] State of Play
[3/5] Sunshine Cleaning
[n/a] Taxi Driver
[3/5] The Time Traveler's Wife
[5/5] Up
[n/a] Up in the Air
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